Inspired by J.Mraz

Inspired by the lovely word of Mr. Jason Mraz in After an Afternoon.



"But there's something in the way you laugh
And it makes me feel like a child
Aspects of life they confuse me
You and your thesis amuse me
Oh, after and afternoon with you"

You Make Me.. Smile With My Heart

Another Random Doodle.

Supernova - Mr Hudson Ft. Kanye West

What an interesting video. Great effects.

MR HUDSON [FEAT KANYE WEST] - SUPERNOVA from MrHudson on Vimeo.

[Mr Hudson]
Chorus:
and I feel like taking off
let me be your supernova
before you make the biggest mistake of your life
just give me the chance to get it right


Verse 1:
they got it all
they've got all the things I thought I wanted
but I can't fall
to fake anymore
to live this facade and smile as the warm champagne pours
out on the lawn we'll pretend we're having tonnes of fun in this world where we don't belong
some bloke all alone
is she thinking of me
did she forget what we once had


Chorus:
and I feel like taking off
let me be your supernova
before you make the biggest mistake of your life
just give me the chance to get it right get it right


[Kanye West]
Verse 2:
oh they got it all you can see they got it all
they got the cars the boat and the beautiful house by the shore
and you know there's more
but I can't take another minute of y'all
he wants his kids and the dog
he wants his breakfast in bed
he's got his trust fund saved
not a worry in his head
he's not you or me
I wanna break up the scene and see you running back to me


Chorus:
coz I feel like taking off
let me be your supernova
before you make the biggest mistake of your life
just give me a chance to get it right get it right

yeah I feel like taking off
let me be your supernova tonight
before you make the biggest mistake of your life
just give me a chance to get it right get it right


[Mr Hudson]
you've got it wrong if you say our love is gone
you've got it wrong if you say our love is gone
[Mr Hudson & Kanye West]
you've got it wrong if you say our love is gone
you've got it wrong if you say our love is gone
[Mr Hudson]
you've got it wrong if you say our love is gone
(repeats in the background)


[Kanye West]
yeah I feel like taking off
let me be your supernova
before you make the biggest mistake of your life
just give me a chance to get it right get it right


[Mr Hudson & Kanye West]
yeah I feel like taking off
let me be your supernova tonight
before you make the biggest mistake of your life
just give me the chance to get it right get it right

Best I Ever Had - Drake

Though the song has been circulating for a while now the video has just been leaked. Directed by no other then Mr. Kanye West, expect for it to be filled with beautiful women and great cinematography.. Then again, maybe just beautiful women..

Drake "Best I Ever Had" from kwest on Vimeo.

Best I Ever Had lyrics

Baby you my everything you all i ever wanted.
We can do it real big.
Bigger then you ever done it.
You be up on everything.
Other hoes ain't never on it.
I want this forever, i swear i can spend whatever on it.

Cause she hold me down everytime i hit her up.
When i get right i promise that we gon live it up.
She make me beg for it till she give it up.
And I say the same thing every single time.

I say you the fucking best.
You the fucking best.
You the fucking best.
You the fucking best.
You the best i ever had.
Best I ever had.
Best I ever had.
Best I ever had.
I say you the fucking.

Know you got a roommate
Call me when its no one there
Put the key under the mat
And you know I'll be over there
(Yup) I'll be over there
Shawty, I'll be over there
I'll be hitting all the spots that u ain't even know was there
Ha. And you ain't even have to ask twice
You can have my heart or we can share it like the last slice
Always felt like you was so accustom to the fast life
Have a nigga thinking that he met you in a past life
Sweat pants, hair tied, chilling with no make up on
That's when your the prettiest
I hope that you don take it wrong
You don't even trip when friends say you ain't bringing Drake along
You know that I'm working I'll be there soon as I make it home
And she a patient in my waiting room
Never pay attention to them rumors and what they assume
And until them girls prove it
I'm the one to Never get confused with Cause.

Baby you my everything you all i ever wanted.
We can do it real big.
Bigger then you ever done it.
You be up on everything.
Other hoes ain't never on it.
I want this forever, i swear i can spend whatever on it.

Cause she hold me down everytime i hit her up.
When i get right i promise that we gon live it up.
She make me beg for it till she give it up.
And I say the same thing every single time.

I say you the fucking best.
You the fucking best.
You the fucking best.
You the fucking best.
You the best i ever had.
Best I ever had.
Best I ever had.
Best I ever had.
I say you the fucking.

Sex, Love, Pain
Baby I be on that tank shit
Buzz so big i could probably sell a blank disk
When my album drop
Bitches will buy it for the picture
And niggas will buy it too and claim they got it for they sister
Magazine paper girl
But money ain't the issue
They bring dinner to my room and ask me to initial
She call me the referee
Cause I be so official
My shirt ain't got no stripes but I can make yo pussy whistle
Like the Andy Griffith theme song
And who told you to put them jeans on
double cup love
You the one i lean on
Feeling for a fix then you should really get yo pheen on
Yea just know my condo is the crack spot
Every single show she out there repping like a mascot
Get it from the back
And make yo fucking bra strap pop
All up in yo slot until the nigga hit the jackpots

Baby you my everything you all i ever wanted.
We can do it real big.
Bigger then you ever done it.
You be up on everything.
Other hoes ain't never on it.
I want this forever, i swear i can spend whatever on it.

Cause she hold me down every time i hit her up.
When i get right i promise that we gon live it up.
She make me beg for it till she give it up.
And I say the same thing every single time.

I say you the fucking best.
You the fucking best.
You the fucking best.
You the fucking best.
You the best i ever had.
Best I ever had.
Best I ever had.
Best I ever had.
I say you the fucking.

Reminisce

So this morning as I enjoyed my daily commute to work my iPod decides to go on a journey to the past and would only play Nsync. To those of you who know me on a personal day to day would know how much Nsync meant to me from '98-'02. Yes, I know but why do you think I have such an unhealthy obsession with Justin Timberlake?
Any who, after listening to a few songs I become nostalgic and thought I should share the greatness that was Nsync with you all..

ENJOY!

And You Are?

Who gave you the right to think it's ok to lay your hand upon her?
Who gave you the right to break her heart?
She's fragile. Protect her. Don't destroy and disperce.
She loves you, more then ever and here you are providing her pain.
She needs an antidote to you. A resistence force against your grip.
Please be aware and stop tearing her apart.

Nightmares.

Grea thing about nightmares is they're over once you wake..

Dismay

Yeah, at times I really miss ya,
But what more can I do but try to forget you.
My continuous daily battle..
I try and I try but I still continue to fall..
And land on this dirty gravel.
It seems to line my life,
Like my sadness and dismay.
No more physical pain,
Only the pain of lost memories remain..
Needing them not to exist but they do.
And to that all I can say is Thank You.

Gavin DeGraw - Dreams

An oldie but most def. a goodie.



Spending all my money on phone cards
Waiting for my ship to come in, in from that ocean
Come home to this sea, harboring in me
I don't believe in four-leaf clovers
Or the luck they're supposed to bring
I've used all my wild cards
But there's something I can do
To get close to you

I've got dreams of love and I love you
I know you feel the same way too
I feel your spirit when you're near me and when you're away
Somehow, somewhere I'll see you again
But until then I've got dreams of loving you


Thinking bout every little thing we ever did crazy
Sipping on that memory lane
That lane never closes, seven days of the week
I can drive in my sleep

cause I've got dreams of love and I love you
I know you feel the same way too
I feel your spirit when you're near me and when you're away
Somehow, somewhere I'll see you again
But until then I've got dreams of loving you

Dreams I will share when I see you again
And I'll see you again pretty soon
I pray but until then I've got dream

I've got dreams of love and I love you
I know you feel the same way too
I feel your spirit when you're near me and when you're away
Somehow, somewhere I'll see you again
But until then I've got dreams of loving you

Megan Fox and Marijuana..

"I can't tell you how much bullshit I've been through because I will openly say that I smoke weed…People look at it like it's this crazy, hippy, fucked up thing to do. And it's not. I hope they legalize it."

Thank you for being so damn hott!

One of those days..

Where anything that can't go wrong, WILL go wrong.
Where nothing you want works out.
When that one smile is the only thing that will cheer you up but you know seeing her and her smile are a far fetched reality.

Kanye..

HAPPY MOTHERFUCKING BIRTHDAY!

Lady Gaga - Paparazzi

Lady Gaga, thank you for existing. You are amazing.



We are the crowd
We're cuh-coming out
Got my flash on it's true
Need that picture of you
It's so magical
We'd be so fantastic, oh

Leather and jeans
Garage glamorous
Not sure what it means
But this photo of us
It don't have a price
Ready for those flashing lights
'Cause you know that baby I-

I'm your biggest fan
I'll follow you until you love me
Papa-Paparazzi
Baby there's no other superstar
You know that I'll be your-
Papa-Paparazzi

Promise I'll be kind
But I won't stop until that boy is mine
Baby you'll be famous
Chase you down until you love me
Papa-Paparazzi

I'll be your girl backstage at your show
Velvet ropes and guitars
Yeah cause you know I'm starting between the sets
Eyeliner and cigarettes

Shadow is burnt, yellow dance and return
My lashes are dry - purple teardrops I cry
It don't have a price
Loving you is Cherry Pie
'Cause you know that baby I
I'm your biggest fan
I'll follow you until you love me
Papa-Paparazzi
Baby there's no other superstar
You know that I'll be your
Papa-Paparazzi

Promise I'll be kind
But I won't stop until that boy is mine
Baby you'll be famous
Chase you down until you love me
Papa-paparazzi

Real good, We're dancing in the studio
Stop-stopped, That shit on the radio
Don't stop, for anyone
We'll Blast it but we'll still have fun

I'm your biggest fan
I'll follow you until you love me
Papa-Paparazzi
Baby there's no other superstar
You know that I'll be your
Papa-Paparazzi

Promise I'll be kind
But I won't stop until that boy is mine
Baby you'll be famous
Chase you down until you love me
Papa-paparazzi

Kanye West - Paranoid

This man is just genius.



Why are you so paranoid
Don't be so paranoid
Don't be so....
Baby don't worry about it
Lady don't even think about it
You worry bout the wrong things, the wrong things
You worry bout the wrong things, the wrong things
You worry bout the wrong things, the wrong things
You worry bout the wrong things, the wrong things


Tell me right now
You really wanna spend your whole life alone
A little time out might do you good, might do us good
Before we be done for good
Cause I make it good I could make it hood
I can make you come I can make you go
I can make you high I can make you fly
Make you touch the sky hey maybe so
All of the time
You be up in mine checking through my cell phone baby no
You wanna kill the vibe on another night
Here's another fight oh here we go
Baby don't worry about it
Lady we'll go out to the floor


Anyway they don't know you like I do
They'll never know you
Anyway they don't know you like I do
They'll never know you


All of the time
You wanna complain about the nights alone
So now you're here with me
Show some gratitude leave the attitude way back at home
Yea you see em look
Baby let em look give us cold looks cause we look cold
Yea you heard about all the word of mouth
Don't worry about what we can't control
All the talk in the world lost in the world
Till you finally let that thing go
You wanna check in to the heartbreak hotel
But sorry we're closed
Baby don't worry about it
Lady we'll go out to the floor


Anyway they don't know you like I do
They'll never know you
Anyway they don't know you like I do
They'll never know you


Baby don't worry about it
Lady don't even think about it
You worry bout the wrong things, the wrong thing
You worry bout the wrong thing, the wrong thing
You worry bout the wrong thing, the wrong thing
You worry bout the wrong thing

Anyway they don't know you like I do
They'll never know you
Anyway they don't know you like I do
They'll never know you

Untitled.

What to say when the words have run out?
And after all the chasing,
You're done trying to stand out.
No more warm embracing,
No more making out..
Now the scheduled hello's have reached their peak
and only drop to a quick check in to see if she speaks.
Yeah she does, but she's sharp with her tongue..
So why try and stick around if that's all I will reap?
And it worst 'cause she knows that I'm sprung.
Well for now I am cool and I will keep my head up high.
Just hoping one day she will come to realize, that I..
Could have been that prize.
And maybe that will never happen,
For she's not the type..
She's not one to ever feel the love hype.
But on I will go as I've learned to survive..
Wishing her happiness with all of her tries.

Coldplay - Fix You

By far one of the most amazing songs I have ever witnessed played live.
Goes out to someone special..





When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down on your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

John Mayer - Over and Over

One of his better unheard tracks.. It's been in corculation for about 4 or 5 years. Great song.. Def. feeling it at this moment.




Baby, you could jump a hundred times
There’s just no way that you’ll ever fall out of my graces, out of my graces
Let’s say for a second that you ever do
And it gets hard to look at you
Time will erase it, time will erase it

You can use me up, kick me down
As much as you like, we’re good on time
Cause, guess who desperately wants you, over and over
Over and over
Guess who desperately wants you, over and over
Over and over

You can cut your hair just to grow it back
Or dye it till the sink turns black
I’ll recognize you, I’ll recognize you

When you lose your way and I’m doing fine
I’ll even lose my place in line
I’ll help you find it, I’ll help you find it

Cause, guess who desperately wants you, over and over
Over and over
Guess who desperately wants you, over and over
Over and over

Fadeout
Cry at the hands of you before I laughed at something new
Cause over and over, I’m breaking my heart just to save your own

Wow, Val loves Tits..

This will be the Tee worn for Queens Pride!

Every Girl - Lil' Wayne Ft. Drake, Millz, Gudda & Mack Mizzo

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MTV Going Green

Just Watch.

3650 from Ubik on Vimeo.

Oh Katty Perry..

Katy Perry, Thank you for existing. With your catchy sharped tongue humor and prolific fashion sense, who can help but love you?

A little something..

For my special something..

6emia Project

Brazilian Artist, Anderson Augusto and Leonardo Delafuente have created a street based project called the 6emia Project. In effort to liven up the streets of Sau Paulo, Brazil these two very awesome men have gone around upgrading the cities sewer systems.. Very innovative and makes looking down at the ground a lot more interesting.

Top 60 Ghetto Black Names!

By far one of the funniest YouTube videos of all time..

BBC Silver Metallic Accessories

New release from the BBC.
I need these in my life!

Move over Jetsons

We are well on our way to being the Jetsons people and it's so exciting..
the first ever jetpack will be released later this year. Get ready to pay a pretty penny for it but it looks like soooo much fun!

Kris Allen + Heartless = WTF?!

As most of you may know music is integral in my life and through the years American Idol has slowly but surely been stabbing me in the heart with their horrific attempt at discovering Americas next best thing. Not that some of them don't have talent but the way they try to mold them into these perfect little pop starlets is kinda nauseating. My main problem with the show is that it needs to let all these artist mold into the musicians THEY wish to be. Seriously wtf is the point of a 18yr old boy doing a Patsy Cline cover when what he really wants to sing is Justin Timberlake's Rock With You or maybe Dave Mathews' Crash? Not allowing these artist to unfold into their own style is what sets me off causing me to not watch this show at all and not support anything it stands for until last night.. As I was on the wonderful world of YouTube I came across an acoustic cover of Heartless by none other then Kris Allen, one of the finalist on this seasons American Idol. At first I was like hmm how is that going to work.. Oh and was I blown away. Kris may not be the next John Mayer but he did a damn great job at arranging the song and making it his own. Take a listen.

Pretty Wings - Maxwell

Time will bring the real end of our trial
One day there'll be no remnants
No trace no residual feelings within ya
one day you won't remember me

Your face will be the reason I smile
But I will not see what I can not have forever
I'll always love ya I hope u feel the same

Oh you played me dirty your game was so bad
You toyed with my affliction had to fill out my prescription
Found the remedy I had to set u free

Away from me
To see clearly the way that love can be
When you are not with me
I had to leave, I have to live
I had to lead, I had to live

Chorus
If I cant have you let love set you free
To fly your pretty wings around
pretty wings your pretty wings
your pretty wings your pretty wings around

I came wrong You were right
Transformed your love into a lie
Baby believe me I'm sorry I told you lies
I turned day into night
Sleepless, I died a thousand times
I should've chose you
Better nights Better times Better Days
I miss you more and more

Repeat Chorus

Pretty Wings Pretty Wings
Pretty Wings Pretty Wings
Pretty Wings Pretty Wings
Pretty Wings Pretty Wings

Hi Haters

Hey hater,
I hope you have a wonderful mothers day.

Hey Mama - Kanye West

To all of you amazing Mothers of the word, Happy Mothers Day. Thank you all for all your efforts in raising us and allowing us to learn from the beauties that are our mothers.





(Hey Mama), I wanna scream so loud for you, cuz I'm so proud of you
Let me tell you what I'm about to do, (Hey Mama)
I know I act a fool but, I promise you I'm goin back to school
I appreciate what you allowed for me
I just want you to be proud of me (Hey Mama)

I wanna tell the whole world about a friend of mine
This little light of mine and I'm finna let it shine
I'm finna take yall back to them better times
I'm finna talk about my mama if yall don't mind
I was three years old, when you and I moved to the Chi
Late December, harsh winter gave me a cold
You fixed me up something that was good for my soul
Famous homemade chicken soup, can I have another bowl?
You work late nights just to keep on the lights
Mommy got me training wheels so I could keep on my bike
And you would give anything in this world
Michael Jackson leather and a glove, but didn't give me a curl
And you never put no man over me
And I love you for that mommy cant you see?
Seven years old, caught you with tears in your eyes
Cuz a nigga cheatin, telling you lies, then I started to cry
As we knelt on the kitchen floor
I said mommy Imma love you till you don't hurt no more
And when I'm older, you aint gotta work no more
And Imma get you that mansion that we couldn't afford
See you're, unbreakable, unmistakable
Highly capable, lady that's makin loot
A livin legend too, just look at what heaven do
Send us an angel, and I thank you (Hey Mama)

Forrest Gump mama said, life is like a box of chocolates
My mama told me go to school, get your doctorate
Somethin to fall back on, you could profit with
But still supported me when I did the opposite
Now I feel like it's things I gotta get
Things I gotta do, just to prove to you
You was getting through, can the choir please
Give me a verse of “You, Are So Beautiful To Me�?
Can't you see, you're like a book of poetry
Maya Angelou, Nicky Giovanni, turn one page and there's my mommy
Come on mommy just dance wit me, let the whole world see your dancing feet
Now when I say Hey, yall say Mama, now everybody answer me (Hey Mama)

I guess it also depends tho, if my ends low
Second they get up you gon get that Benzo
Tint the windows, ride around the city and let ya friends know (Hey Mama)

Tell your job you gotta fake em out
Since you brought me in this world, let me take you out
To a restaurant, upper echelon
Imma get you a jag, whatever else you want
Just tell me what kind of S-Type Donda West like?
Tell me the perfect color so I make it just right
It don't gotta be Mother's Day, or your birthday
For me to just call and say (Hey Mama)

Mothers Day without her...

My sweet little girl, I love you. I miss you. I will never stop caring and I hope when you get older you see this. You are my guiding light and my inspiration. You made me a better person. I adore you. You are my princess my shining beauty.
I LOVE YOU AARALYN SKYLAR CONTRERAS-VALLEJO!

You have no words..

you have no words?
I have no idea what to think, how to react, what to say, what to feel. I'm blank. I'm numb. I'm Cold. I'm Furious. I'm Angry. I'm HURT.
I really feel like the world just opened up and swallowed me alive. With no consideration I just want to sit here and cry. When nothing else made sense my daughter made me smile and now she's being taken with nothing but goodbye. I want to see her, at least one time. Tell her that I love her and to never fear for I will always be near. in her heart, in her soul, in her mind. Memories never fade for they live strong within. the memories we had will forever live. Forever live in me, die with my legacy. She will see one day that momma never ran away. Never did she stray.. Only worked hard for her baby to have a place to lay.

Ne-Yo - Go On Girl

HA, why didn't I remember about this song a couple months ago..

Lykke Li Ft, Drake - A Little Bit

If you haven't noticed I have been on Lykke Li binge today. She is absolutely amazing. Best thing out of Sweden since Ikea!



Hands down Im too proud for love
but with eyes shut its you im thinkinq of
but how we move from A to B it cant be up to me
cuz you dont know who i was before you
and basically to see a change in me i'd be losinq
so i just iqnore you yeah ooooh
but your on my mind, my mind, my mind, my mind, my mind oohhh
and maybe in time,in time, in time i'll tell you ima


a litle bit, a little bit, a little bit in love with you
i guess that Ima little bit, a little bit, a little bit in love with you!

i know you told me break their hearts
but its you i wanna take apart
and i would never ever be the first to say it
but still i they know i-i,i,i

I would do it
push a button
pull a triqqer
climb a mountain
jump off a cliff cuz your my baby
i love you- love you just a little bit

I would do it
you would say it
you would mean it
we could do it
it was you and I, not only I,I

i think ima a little bit- little bit
a little bit in love with you
but only if you're a little bit- little bit
a little bit in la la la la love with me!

I hope they never find out
what they already know,know,know
as soon as its official we'll have to let it go,go,go
so we dont confirm the flinq
keep avoidinq all the questions
yu can teach me many things
im just scared to learn a lesson

the pressures on both hearts beat like a metronome
both in sync like a justin song feels so right but its just soo wronq
i wonda what my world bout when niqqas that i know tryna take my qirl out
and her friends say i aint the one to go for
she just jeaouls cuz you always get approached more
oh well tell her fall back
caught up in some more shit tell her call back
tell her get a man that aint cheatinq on her ass with a girl that i know
yeah tell her all that- that
and as for you i think i know your the one
the closest ive come im privately a..

a little bit-a little bit- a little bit in love with you
i guess that im a little bit- a little bit
a little bit in love with you.

Untitled..

Your eyes, they amaze me.
Like amber they are, I peer in to see what lays within.
I peer and stare trying to catch a glimpse of your soul.
Those eyes were made for me.
So beautifully delicate and enchanting.
I wish to captivate them,
Show them all the wonderfull things the world has to offer..
I want to embrace you, hold you close,
Make you feel the beauty within your eyes..

Untill We Bleed - Kleerup Ft. Lykke Li

At the moment I am so down with this euro sound.. I think America needs to dump all the Flo Riders of the country and JUMP ON THE EURO BANDWAGON!!



I'm naked
I'm numb
I'm stupid
I'm staying
And if Cupid's got a gun, then he's shootin'

Lights black; heads bang
You're my drug
We live it
You're drunk, you need it
Real love, I'll give it
So we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

You wasted your times
On my heart
You've burned
And if bridges gotta fall, then you'll fall, too

Doors slam
Lights black
You're gone
Come back
Stay gone
Stay clean
I need you to need me
So we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

Now we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

Gifted - N.A.S.A Ft. Kanye West, Santogold & Lykke Li

Love this song, super fresh. Listen, love it, learn it. Music is on the rise again friends!



I'm known for running my mouth
I will not be accountable for what comes out, uh
I dunno, I might have said it
I was kinda gone and light-headed
And my jacket kinda fresh bright reded
And as usual my pants tight-threaded.
It seem like everybody dress tight now
And I just want my credit.
Don't get it twisted it or dreaded it
I am the king and will not beheaded,
To the mall no time soon, brethren
Being broke made my head hurt
So I need the bread or an Excedrin,
That'll only get my engine revvin'.
While y'all on ten, I'm on eleven.
I'ma make the news, be on at seven.
Matter fact I'm on this very second.
I'm in first and y'all in second.
And this verse only add to the freshness.
Call the club, tell them add to the guest list.
What you think? Way more bitches?
I can never be too big for my britches.
Y'all muthafuckas know who this is.
I'm gifted,
Merry Christmas...
Merry Christmas.

I'm armed with pens, and I got my rhymes
Whatever comes, I write it down
So knock me out and shoot me down
With mics in hand, we'll stand against the test of time

You don't know my mind
Like I said a thousand times
I gotta stay ahead
Know what I'm fighting for
I leave you to your talk
Never seen my kind before
And you're all so thick-headed
Follow and I know I let it
Part of me won't let me quit
Won't let me just not say shit
So much is there to be bored with
Can't be still, I can't afford it
Try to hold it in but it make me sick,
So I spit it out say the hell with it
I dream it and I build it tall
Make a way for when it falls

I'm armed with pens, and I got my rhymes
Whatever comes, I write it down
So knock me out and shoot me down
With mics in hand, we'll stand against the test of time

I'm armed with pens, and I got my rhymes
Whatever comes, I write it down
So knock me out and shoot me down
With mics in hand, we'll stand against the

I'm armed with pens, and I got my rhymes
Whatever comes, I write it down
So knock me out and shoot me down
With mics in hand, we'll stand against the test of time

gone

Nothing seems to be gone.

You were just a figment of my imagination
I tried to see this through another's eyes
but it wasn't reality
It's a lie
you couldn't even speak
No explanation
just a simple its over
and I understand
its want meant to be
but 'm fine
I've moved on
I've left it alone
I've let it be
Your free
I'm done
Your on your own
but shes my daughter too
Don't ever forget that I have been there too
You cant disprove what I was there for
You cant disprove the truth
But you will continue too
because your "MAN" might get mad
and that's fine
your pussy and so is she
I know why you don't talk to me
because shes got a hold of you
and when you wake up from this hazizie dream
and you come running back to me.

ITS NO BITCH
be out.


Your Ex.

Because He Got High

I was supposed to go bowling with him,
But then he got High
We were supposed to go to the movies,
But then he got high
He was supposed to open the door for me,
But he was too high

So all in all dude's always getting High
Getting High
Getting High

He promised to take me out tonight,
But of course he got High
Couldn't talk, walk or function rite,
Because he was high
And now every time that we chill I know,
That he will probably be High

So all in all dude's always getting High
Getting High
(Yes he's High)
Getting so High
Getting so high!


This song goes out to a very special reader.. you know who you are!

Your face..

When I see your face it gives me hell, are you happy? Not because I hate you but because I still love you. I ask myself, how can I still love you after everything you have put me through? I tell myself this isn't right. You claimed to have loved me so deep, so then why did you shatter my heart, taint my mind and disassembled my soul? I wake every morning happy to breath easily but once the thought of you crosses my mind I wither to nothing. I can't change how I feel and only time will help me heal but time is not going by fast enough for me to change the passage of my life and steer clear of you.

It saddens me to think that if one day you were to come back I would consider being with you.. The only fear that consumes me is that of losing my family, the people that have stuck with me through this whole ordeal and gave me their hands when I was drowning, and it saddens me that I wouldn't put my well being first and have the strength to say no. How can you have such a strong hold over me still?

I wish to have you off of my mind and out of my heart. Why can't this happen any sooner? I just want to live normally again, without the fear of seeing you and having to close my eyes or turn and walk the other way..

The One I Gave My Heart To

Def an oldie but very much a goodie.

Aaliyah, You will never be forgotten. Your songs are set in stone and your voice will ring for eternity. R.I.P.





How could the one I gave my heart to
break my heart so bad
How could the one who made me happy
make me feel so sad
Won't somebody tell me so I can understand
If you love me
how could you hurt me like that

how could the one i gave my world to
throw my world away
how could the one who said i love you
say the things u say
how could the one i was so tru to
just tell me lies
how could the one i gave my heart to
go and break this heart of mine
tell mee...

How could you be so cold to me
when I gave you everything
all my love, all I had inside
How could you just walk out the door
how could you not love me anymore
I thought we had forever
I can't understand

How could the one I shared my dreams with
take my dream from me
How could the love that brought such pleasure
bring such misery
won't somebody tell me,
Somebody tell me please
If you love me how could you do that to me
tell me
Oohh Hey

How could you just walk out the door
How could you not love me anymore
I thought we had forever
Can't understand
No I can't understand

How could the one I gave my heart to
break my heart so bad (break my heart)
how could the one who made me happy (you made me so happy)
make me feel so sad
won't somebody tell me (won't you tell me)
so I can understand (so I can understand)
If you love me how could you hurt me like that
(how could you hurt me)

How could the one I gave my world to,
throw my world away (throw my world away)
how could the one who said I love you (you said you love me)
say the things you say (but you didn't love me)
how could the one I was so true to
just tell me lies (you told me lies)
how could the one I gave my heart to
make me feel so sad

how could the one I gave my heart to
Break my heart so bad
tell me

tell me

What is love when your in love with a douche..

Is it really love when you give your all to a douche?? NO! **WARNING** ** WARNING** this can be detrimental to your health. Why give your all to someone that doesn't reciprocate the emotions or actions? WAKE UP! This can't possibly be love. You can't possibly be IN love with a person who uses you and walks all over you.. This is equivalent to them walking outside on a nice sunny day and stepping into a HUGE pile of steaming dog shit.. Then mossing on over to your place and tracking shit marks all over your domain.. You can wipe away the shit marks but the smell lasts a while. Why deal with it? Just don't allow them in! Leave your shit at the door and move on. Take it from me, a person who suffered from third degree burns to the heart, being with them does not justify the lingering smell of poo!
Please be cautious of the following:
Pretty Girls.
Pretty Girls that are pregnant.
Pretty Girls that are pregnant and have nowhere to go.
Pretty Boys.
Pretty Boys that have babies.
Pretty Boys that have babies and don't take care of them (they may knock you up).
Pretty Boys/Girls that have ugly hearts.
Pretty Boys/Girls that lie about the smallest things.
Pretty Boys/Girls that have cheated in their past relationships, history repeats itself!
Pretty Boys/Girls that ask your friends to sleep with them. Even if it's a joke IT"S STILL NOT FUCKING CUTE!
Remember, You are worth much more then the above. Even if they aren't as pretty as you would like them to be what matters is that they have a golden heart. What really matters is that they make you feel like the King/Queen you really are. Love is blind and sometimes it takes a lot more for us to realize what a scumbag a person can be.. but if your gut tells you that something just isn't right well then FUCKING LISTEN! Spare yourself and count your loses.. It'll be better for your mental health in the end.

Me, in the third person.

Awoken by the sun with a gentle kiss to her eye lids, she was as content as the first time she ever embarked on a journey through the abyss. She honestly felt that today the earth took a deep breath and inhaled all the sun ray. She awoke and said what a beautiful morning. -Val

Sunshine. My little ray of light.
I awoke this morning and it felt like I was awakened by your kiss.
I swore I heard the pitter patter of your little feet streaming across the floor.
I opened my eyes with anticipation to see your face.
The little glimmer of light in your eyes.
Unfortunately it was just wishful thinking.
I miss you my daughter. I miss you terribly.
How I wish I could turn back the hands of time and change things.
But what's done is done and these adult games are affecting me.
One day we will be able to sit and talk about these events.
And hopefully you will understand why "I wasn't there".
I miss you my inspiration. I miss you my bundle of joy.
Lets hope this time passes quickly so that we can embrace each others joys..

Illustrations by Raul Allen

Daily Love Horoscope..

for me the libra..

Daily Singles:
Don't be surprised if an ex starts sniffing around, wanting to get back together. You've been down this road before, more than once and with the same result. If you want to listen to all the new arguments, go ahead -- but it's all the same old, same old. Just you watch.

Hmmm.. wow. Well if it does happen I already know what my reaction will be.. FUCK YOU!

God Loves Ugly..

I really want to marry her. One of the dopest girls I have ever come across (well on the world wide web). thank you youtube and AE for putting me on.

BBC/Ice Cream Suade Hight Tops

Though BBC is mailny knonw for it's exclusive clothing designs they have designed this very cool pair of kicks. The first pair features a red leather and suede tonal upper accented by a white midsole stripe, and white inner lining. The second colorway yields a blue suede base with a white midsole stripe, a bright blue sole, and bright blue laces. Both sneakers have rather simple designs and colors, but the price tag for them is quite high.

Kanye West for Louis Vuitton boating sneaker

Kanye does it again. I will definitely have to purchase the all white boaters. So clean and pretty.. Another $500 or so of my money.. gone..

Todays horoscope..

Overview
You're feeling sentimental today. It could be your thoughts go back to a long lost ex when you hear a song on the radio. Or the news of your elementary school being demolished makes you cry. You shouldn't get disturbed by these eruptions of emotion. You're just working through some stuff and even if you're not consciously aware of what these issues are, you need to give yourself time to do it. Don't feel the need to make excuses or suppress what you feel.


hmm interesting.

Amsterdam Anyone?

Being that my 25th birthday is nearing and rather quickly I have decided that i want to go away.. Amsterdam has always been a place of spectacle and wonder with all it's great canals.. and I think that is exactly where I want to go!
Anyone up for the trip???