and one day she will know how much I was worth..

I can deal with her not being here. I can deal with her goodbye.. but I cant deal with the sight of her. Why is that just looking at her smile makes my heart drop to the pit of my stomach? I know she's toxic.. She's lethal.. I need to stay away. but do I give up all of our common friends? Avoid looking at pictures of them in fear that I may see her? I just need to get over this feeling. I need to step back and look at the bigger picture. She betrayed me.. She broke my heart.. She's keeping the only good thing in my life away from me. She doesnt desurve my feeling of longing and love. She desurves nothing from me at all. This really isn't fair, I shouldnt have to continue feeling anything for her. This should have been a painless process after what she did to me.. But I do still care and I do still love, yet in time this will all fade and she will only be a far off memory. Thankfully. Thank you time for allowing me to heal.

On a lighter note, wasn't I just the cutest! Pimping the aviators even back then!